Thursday, November 8, 2012

The truth about two under 2.

photo courtesy our nanny friend, Nadia
There is so much that can be said in this post however I realize that most of you have a life so I won't drone on. And if you are prone to dislike family posts...you'll want to skip this one. It's a doozy.

Becoming a mom of two has changed my life in ways I never knew it could. For example, I can now refer to my kids as "the girls" which makes my heart go pitter pat. I also have built in playmates which poses an excellent gift on those rainy days at home. I have two little humans to embark on girlie adventures - nail painting, crafts, Christmas tree decorating and so on. I will braid hair and make pig tails and make sure each of my daughters has the most scrumptious birthday treats each and every year. Again, just a few things that I am looking forward to.

It's also changed my life in ways beyond my control. The key word being "control" as anyone who knows me is aware of my type A tendencies. That's a topic for a whole other day. For example, I used to go to the bathroom with the door shut. No, no...a certain toddler has figured out door handles. I used to SLEEP. Man, I used to sleep! And when my toddler went down for her naps...you have no idea what I could get done in 15 minutes time let alone two hours!

I wouldn't change a thing...no I wouldn't. But I'll tell ya something - it's the hardest job I've ever had. By far. And instead of direct deposit; I get paid in hugs and open mouth kisses. I get paid when Olivia walks up to "Rola" and hugs her...even if it borders on a little rough. I get paid when my newborn snuggles up and sleeps for four solid hours. I suppose that's the difference between a career and making a family. One I'd gladly take.

Life at home ranges from organized chaos to mama being one step closer to insanity. These past few months have been really difficult. We've discovered that Lola has colic which makes for very long evenings and the feeling that somehow I must be doing something wrong. We know this is not the case but you feel that way. But for every challenge is a bright spot. Olivia has finally begun walking which is just about the most endearing thing you ever did see. She walks with a sense of pride and the most amazing balance. Even her falls are graceful.

I haven't been too vocal or wordy as of late because I fear losing my entire audience but lately I'm starting to believe that this blog should just evolve into what it's meant to be. I can't pretend I am a fashion blogger or the hippest, urban chick on the block but what I can promise is some hilarity, some fashion tidbits mostly revolving around cheap and chic finds and a loyal blogger who reads and responds to each and every one of your comments...on a somewhat delayed basis. And for those of you who do comment - thank you! Thanks for reading and taking the time out to say something nice. I am so grateful for the friends I've met through blogging. And if I owe you an email response...I'm sorry. I will get to it. xo

14 comments:

  1. A blog should be a place to express yourself, and you shouldn't worry too much about what your readers will think! At first I wanted mine to be a cool fashion blog, but I soon realized that I'm not always trendy, but I love sharing my photographs instead, whether or not they include some outfit posts.

    ..And personally I love your cute family pictures and little stories!

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  2. My little S had colic for 4 months, but it all sort of disappeared when be began eating solid foods. Best of luck with the sleeping issues, boy do I know that pain (still, and my youngest is 20 months).

    I adore you and your blog, so you'll always have a faithful reader in me! XO

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  3. Do what makes you happy! I'm not into kids, but Mommy blogs still fascinate me. It's like how the other half live, and it's so refreshing to get honest perspectives. My mom always said it's the best and the worst job. :)

    Also, I had colic. My sister was 16 when i was born, and therefore the designated driver when mom needed us to go for a ride for me to calm down (there were no car seats, so Mom was the holder). Anyway, that sister has said going through that is the reason she never had kids. Hahahaha, so yeah, it's a beast.

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  4. I truly enjoy these posts, darling! I'm pretty blown away about how you describe motherhood. Thanks SO much for sharing this. Those post are true gems! :) XOXO

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  5. You can be a sweet sincere mommy blogger that also loves fashion and interior design. We will still read your posts. Blog about what fills your heart with joy and you will always have followers. That's what I believe. If not - who really cares right? ;-)

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  6. Oh and I had 2 under 2. Mine are 18 months apart. Man those were some sleepless nights. Trust me it gets better. You will sleep again!!

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  7. Don't fear anything! I love your family posts as well as your fabulous fashion posts. Even some of the "biggest" bloggers have shifted and grown with life's changes, it should be the least of your worries. Let it evolve. When I came back from my hiatus, I realized the blogs I missed the most were the ones that contained real people, and much less of the "cheesy, breezy, life is easy" variety. Life is real darn it, let's act like it. I love your honesty about parenting and it makes me think that not only can I do it someday, too, but also that I really want to. (Whenever that someday comes.) Don't stop inspiring me!

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  8. Your blog - your rules. :) It was a beautiful post and I really enjoyed reading it. Your girls are so sweet! x

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  9. You are my hero. I don't know how you do it. One of my best friends just had her second baby {she now has a boy and girl} and she has no time to take care of herself. BUT..I know from her..and you ..that it's worth it. You do not need to pretend or post something that is not you. Do what you love and people will love you for it!!
    xo
    The Now Style Book

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  10. I've noticed you struggling a bit with how to be true to the blog and to your life, and I think it's amazing that you're confidently letting your life dictate the content. After all–we're here because we adore you and your voice!

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  11. So glad to have read this :) very sweet

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  12. I'm so excited to get to this stage in our lives!

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  13. i love the family/kiddo posts. with just one at home im trying to find my sanity and sleep too! you can follow more of me at babytommytime.blogspot.com

    i plan to go back to kegdesign but i'm taking some time off for now :)

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